|Dear Precious One,
I am writing you this letter to express to you God’s love for you. I
understand where you are and what you are going through. I have walked
and worked in your shoes. For 7 years I was in and out of the sex
industry. I know the need & desire you have to be financially
independent, mentally & physically secure and the hopeless feeling
of being trapped in the business.
I am fully aware of the shame and embarrassment this business brings to
you and your family, as well as the discouragement of people telling you
that you will never be anything else I am familiar with the
feeling of being trapped and enduring each week to make ends meet and
how you have to psych yourself up to go back. I know about struggling
with your sexual identity, as well as the destructive behavior patterns
that follow the industry.
I know what it is like to have to get as high as you can to go to work
and to risk getting fired to keep the high during work. The need for
those drinks to numb your conscience and true feelings to be able to
‘get into the job’. I recall vividly the rejection and rudeness of
customers that make you feel like you are nothing but a piece of meat
and less than human.
I also know the excitement of counting the money @ the end of the night,
holding your head up and rationalizing that it is all worth it. Buying
expensive clothes, driving nice vehicles and eating out on a regular
basis. It’s all coupled with the nights that you didn’t make the money
and leave disappointed and hurt that you had subjected yourself to it
all over again with nothing but a feeling of uncleanness and disgust
that you take home with you.
I know how it feels to think that that one ‘nice’ guy may be the man
that will genuinely care for you and help you get out of the business
once and for all. How you dream of your knight in shining armor to come
carry you away like the scenes of "An Officer and a Gentlemen" or
"Pretty Woman". Then the disappointment as they try to persuade you to
come to their hotel room and the realization that all they want is your
body sexually and really don’t care about you for any other reason. The
belief that you will can never trust anyone because they are all out to
use you and discard you like trash.
I know what it’s like to have to use make up to cover the bruises on my
body received from an abusive relationship that I endured in because he
was the ‘only one that really loved me’. What it's like to give sex in
hopes of receiving love. The push and pull with your spirit and soul
knowing instinctively that there had to be someone better for you, but
feeling as if there was no possible way for you to do any better. The
feeling of being trapped that you have after you have decided to quit
and you have to return to the business because other jobs don’t pay you
what you need to support yourself and family. I also know what it is
like to want to hide your past and profession and the fear of someone
finding out what you have done or do for a living while desperately
trying to make it in the real world.
My friend, there is only one way out of this captivity, and it is
through the power of the God of the universe and His son, Jesus Christ.
He loves you with a love that you desire and long for that no one and
nothing else has or can fill you with. He wants you to be free from this
destructive lifestyle and He has provided everything you need to do
this. He’s already paid the price for you to have this freedom. What you
have to do is simply believe, trust and obey Him and He will set you
free. He will give you the desires of your heart and carry you through
every circumstance in your life with victory, IF you allow him to. He
won’t force himself on you and He is always there for you, waiting for
you to open the door and allow Him to come into your life.
Don’t be overwhelmed by all the cleaning up you feel you need to do. He
will do that for you one step @ a time and He loves and ACCEPTS YOU JUST
AS YOU ARE. He will work out all the details on a day to day basis.
What is important today is that you believe that Jesus Christ is the son
of God and that He died for your sins. I encourage you to ask Him to
forgive you of your sins and to come into your heart. Ask Him to help
you to allow Him to be Lord of your life and fill you with His Holy
Spirit. I guarantee if you pray that prayer, that simple prayer, He will
change you life forever. I am a living proof of His grace, mercy and
power to take ashes and turn them to beauty. He will do the same for
If you would like to talk or need help, please contact us. I know how you feel and what you are going through and I am
committed to being here for you, for His sake. There is a network of sex
industry survivors, ministries, organizations and caring individuals
that will help you on this journey to wholeness & freedom. You are
not alone. Together we can.
Truly Your Friend,
Formerly known as "Diamond"
Julie started stripping in an effort to pay for college. Even after obtaining her Bachelor's Degree in Fine Arts from Indiana University & having studied at Purdue University as a triple major & being a Dean's List student, she could not break free of the industry. Quiting numerous times, she always ended up going back because of difficult circumstances, her determination to survive & the quick money.
Even while in college she began taking 'working vacations' appearing in some of the largest & most exquisite 'gentlemen's' clubs across the United States. After college she toured the circuit following large sporting events. (ie. Golf, NASCAR, Indy 500, Formula One, Bike Week, Stanley Cup Series, etc.)
Because of her professional attitude & exceptional industry people skills, she was a welcomed guest to clubs & could easily just 'show up' & work. She used that experience favor to return & gain access into clubs, offering the message of hope to those in the industry. 15+ years of experience enabled her to develop a faith based, best practices model for outREACH and afterCARE of this marginalized populace. When she started doing strip club outREACHes in 2002, there were less than 5 ministries doing strip club outREACH. As of March 2013, there are over 165 worldwide.
WHERE THERE IS
THERE IS A WAY
With God, all things are possible.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,
"They are plans for good
and not for disaster,
to give you a future & a hope.
In those days when you pray,
I will listen.
If you look for me in earnest,
you will find me when you seek me,
I will be found by you,"
says the Lord,
"I will end your captivity..."
God's Plan of Salvation
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